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God’s Judgement: what I learned from a silly kids’ video (and never forgot)


Judgement (and God’s wrath?) I feel like I need to share this, for some odd reason so here goes: Before I came to Jesus, I thought God was punishing me for all my sins. Nothing was going right, and I mean nothing.

I had this moment where I realized how I’d pushed him away, and said in my heart “I’ll get back to you when I’m old, if you are really there” because really I saw God as a big fun-killler who was out to wreck all our fun.

To me, he was just an ogre who demanded we sit still in church and pretend to love him, even if we did not feel his love for ourselves, and while I knew he probably existed (Nature told me that) I didn’t believe he cared personally for me, at all.

After I finally gave my life to him (because I had messed it up so bad, and NOTHING was going right in my life) I had this period of time where I thought “His Judgement” had caused many bad things to happen to me.

Then I saw this kids’ movie, where humpty dumpty was talking to a dragon while sitting on this wall, and the dragon convinced him to lean over to the other side and he FELL into the kingdom of darkness. There, he was unprotected. in this “Kids’ movie” Humpy dumpty cried out to Jesus and was put back on the good side of the wall (which represented God’s kingdom) and God restored him and put him back together again.

As long as I live, I will never forget that movie. it was full of truth and Grace, just like Jesus is. Nobody gave me a list of scipture 10 miles long “a child” could understand the concept of this movie. Keep it simple! God can use such simple things to get his heart across to us. That day, he used a simple corny kids movie to set me straight about his heart towards us….

And I haven’t been the same since   Love to you all! Laura Grace 



    We live in a society that rewards us for doing good (Much of the time) a raise for our work, a bonus for doing an extra great job, Prizes for those who work extra hard at something. A lot of times when hard things or difficult things happen to people, they feel like “what did I do?” to deserve this? We have a reward mentality this is where the saying comes “Nice guys finish last” (a very negative saying!) We see things as being in God’s control, even though Jesus said: “in the world” we’ll have tribulation” and he did not say he gives it to us, he just said it would happen.

     So, when we got news Tim had cancer, it sent our minds into tribulation. Jesus is interested in building his kingdom within us, we are interested in having the problem solved. Can’t God just do miracles? Sure, he can. But just like kids do not grow into adults without what they consider to be tribulation (at school, with friends and so on) we spiritually don’t learn to stand in that Kingdom (within us) without something happening to see what we’re made of. I don’t like storms, and none of us “like trials”.

     When Tim (found out) he had cancer, it was a very bad day for us. We looked to the future and saw possible devastation, financially and otherwise.

     We had to choose to put the whole thing in God’s hands, time and time again.

     As we do this, the Kingdom of God is being built within us.

     The day he had his biopsy (June 2017) God spoke to me 8 things, I wrote them in my Journal and one of them was “Tim will be fine,” But at the same time, The Lord told me to declare victory in the face of evil, among other things. He also said “go hand in hand” which meant the Lord wanted us to face this together (With God’s help) We wanted a miracle as in “No doctor.” We were spending our faith believing for that miracle, but at some point, God let us know he wanted us to trust him THROUGH the tribulation of surgery. Trusting God through It and Trusting God to be delivered from something, can (and often will) happen at the same time.

      Anytime we believe for something in God’s word and it becomes more real to us than what the rest of the world is saying, that’s Kingdom Living!

     It takes Faith to ask or believe for a miracle and it takes faith to believe for peace, Joy and righteousness too. God wants to build his Kingdom within us. We have to receive it by faith.

     Many people wind up on medication because of the hard or difficult times they’ve been through.

     What a wonderful place to Live (IN) the Kingdom of God! It’s within us!

Someday these things we are previewing, will become the place we live forever.

                                                 “Your Kingdom Come” Father, Your will Be done “ON EARTH” as it is in Heaven…….Think about that for a minute!

It’s a real prayer of Faith! -Laura Grace