What I really think…….

“What I really think” has changed a lot through the years. Do you really want to hear about it? Let’s go! When I was in the Air Force, I had a Captain tell me “What he really thought” that everyone should go to college. I remember saying, “Well, if you had two people offering to fly your airplane, one with College, one with experience who would you choose? He said “I”d rather they had both college and experience, to which I said “But you have to choose.” (Guess what he chose?)

I used to think college was not important, until I went to school. I used to think because my preacher said everyone had to tithe, I should preach that too. Until I met a friend who got very upset with me and said “I give where God tells me to give” And she did not appreciate my 2-cent input. I used to think my Mom was too strict, so I started out not hardly disciplining my child. Until she tore my chair apart, wrecked all my cassette tapes, and poked holes in my waterbed. Then I decided discipline might be important. 🙄🤔

I used to think the government should pay for everyone who wanted to get by for free, until I found out when I was on assistance how humiliating it was. I used to Judge those people, and say they should get a job, until I experienced the absolute desparation that goes with no car and no babysitter who is reliable (and so on). I used to believe everyone should have food stamps forever, until I watched my own bank account dwindle to nothing from giving everything away, and having people mad I could not give them more. It was then I realized, “Hey, this has to be a team effort!”

I used to think a lot of things. That everyone should go to church every time the doors were open. That was before I found out what it’s like to be broken and hurting, and have someone say “You should have been here last week!” (Making me feel like I wish I didn’t come today!). I used to think a lot of things. I thought if you gave love, grace and mercy to someone, they would always appreciate it and you’d always reap what you sow. The truth is, I think different about some things because of what I have experienced. I used to think if you loved someone enough and did enough for them, they would eventually love you back.

I thought if you were big enough to say “I”m sorry” Maybe they would eventually say it too- (when they hurt my feelings) But none of this is the case.

I have noticed there are givers, takers, and learners. The learners can learn to be givers, or takers They have to decide which one they want to be. Truth be told, God is a giver!

I hope and pray no matter what happens to me, I will always choose to be like him.

God gives what is undeserved. I was asking something of him today and said “I don’t deserve this, but…………” (and asked of him, my request).

Now, I’ve been serving him a long time, but I still do not DESERVE anything! Everything I have is by his Grace. Every blessing, every success, every single thing! and for this Father I PRAISE YOU! Thank you for your Grace on my life! Help me give it as well as I’ve received it Father. AMEN

He has shown you, O mortal, what is good. And what does the LORD require of you? To act justly and to love mercy and to walk humbly with your God. Micah 6:8.

…..Laura ❤


Letters to My Children

an excerp from the new book I am writing.

My Dear Children,

     I want to start with a passage from 1 John that means a lot to me: 

“I am writing to you, fathers, because you know Him who is from the beginning. I am writing to you, young men, because you have overcome the evil one. I have written to you, children, because you know the Father.” 

      Here lately, I have had just about enough of the opinions of men. 

    The year is 2021, and it seems like there is an all-out war going on and it all has to do with peoples’ opinions. Whether it has to do with social injustice, who should be president, whether to mask or not mask (or get vaccinated). 

     It started quite some time ago and snowballed from there. 

     I can remember when I was young, seatbelts became law, car seats for children, and then you did not see any more metal slides in the parks, (too dangerous). 

     The list goes on and on, but the truth is: Children and adults are still finding new ways to potentially injure themselves. The laws cannot keep up. 

     I think God is okay with having different points of view. 

     Imagine a world where someone decides purple is the perfect color, so everyone is required to paint the house purple. Every kitchen must be orange, every bathroom must be pink. None of us would like that, would we?

     In the book of Acts, the disciples got together and decided to reduce the laws down to three things. “Don’t eat food sacrificed to idols, don’t eat anything strangled, and keep yourselves from sexual immorality.” (Acts 15:20). 

    They said this was good, as they did not want to cause trouble with the Gentiles turning to God. See, Jesus had made a big impression on them all by standing up to the Pharisees. He talked about their many laws and how hypocritical it all was, as they did not keep all those laws themselves. 

     He called them hypocrites, and said they pile burdens on people they are not willing to help them bear. 

     There is a fine line between authority and control. Nobody knows if they will abuse power until they are given that power. In my own life, I have deleted people from social media and other places, simply because they did not agree with me.

     That behavior is childish, selfish, and not God-Like, but I did not get convicted until after I’d already done it. I heard the Holy Spirit whisper to me, “Is that how you would like to be treated?”

     In My perfect world, nobody would be grumpy, everyone would laugh at my jokes, and think everything I said was perfectly wonderful. I do not like being around drunk people, so I would probably outlaw drinking. 

    I do not like the color, orange, so if I were King (and had no discipline) I might be tempted to outlaw that color, so I never have to look at that color again. 

    Unfair, you say? There are people I know who like “off-color” jokes and I do not enjoy them. I do not care for a lot of cussing, sarcasm, or humor that puts others down.

    Still, if I made a law against all of it, would that be truly fair? 

     God spelled out his laws in the bible, but all it did was show people they could not keep them all. They needed a savior because they could never keep all those laws. 

     Now back to opinions. An opinion is what we consider to be right or wrong. 

    God tells us to be right with him, we need to first accept we are saved by Grace, and then we begin to learn from him how to walk out of our sins and walk into his ways.

     I think most everyone would like to be “the sin police” and go around pointing out who is sinning or not sinning. Our human nature is to judge, be prideful, and especially prideful when we have achieved certain things by our own blood, sweat and tears. 

     Nevertheless, in this passage in 1 John it starts out saying, “If you cannot love your brother who you can see, and claim to love God, you are a liar.”

     When I became born-again the first thing that happened to me is I loved other people of God. My heart was changed.

     I do not believe this passage means your brother in the natural or just any person we meet. When you are born again, you love other people who are born-again and of God. 

     Why am I saying all this? I think because our opinion should be this: “I Love you.” If we do not agree, it is okay. 

     Anything else is from the evil one. He is the one that is causing all this division. 

With Love, Mom