Transparent and in the Light: Rocking the boat Grace to the Rescue by Laura Grace
-So the problem isn’t that I didn’t give my heart to Jesus, or that I didn’t study and pray recently, nor that I am just rebellious or falling away or “washed up.” What happened is worry took ahold of my heart when I was reading an email from a friend of mine.
There’s a story about Jesus’s friend in the bible, their brother Lazarus died and she said “Lord if you’d been here he wouldn’t have died!” She was upset with him! He patiently let her know he was going to do a new thing and went and raised Lazarus from the dead.
Nobody died yesterday but I was upset and rocking the boat Because I was worried and a bit afraid of what God was going to seemingly “allow next” in my life and the lives of my family and loved ones. Ever feel that way? Just be honest! Father I trust you but really what ARE You going to ALLOW NEXT? Maybe we don’t have a brother named Lazarus but we still wonder sometimes;
“Father what is going on here? Why did you not intervene? I was having faith Father for “THIS” thing not to happen and now IT DID HAPPEN anyway!” How can I trust you if you won’t answer my prayers? (That’s basically what she was saying, as she had sent word to Jesus Lazarus was sick and needed help and he didn’t come “on time” according to her timetable!). So we add to the problem by rocking the boat and getting upset and trying to decide just what to think about this what I call “unacceptable situation” whatever it may be. I like to think I’d switch from faith to seeking wisdom right away friends but it doesn’t always happen that way.
SO if you got upset, rocked the boat, worried a little too much and didn’t feel very Christ like yesterday don’t despair! It happens to the best of us, yes it does. Even us who have been serving God a very long time. If we are honest, there are days we just freak out a little bit. With Love and blessings,