The other day, (a week ago to be exact) I was having a really hard struggle. I didn’t know why, I just knew I was upset over just about everything. From A psychology view point it kind of looked like PTSD. From a spiritual view point, it appeared I was just touchy, or having anger issues.
Because I am a preacher of seeking God and growing, I didn’t diagnose myself. I sat down and said “Father what is wrong with me?”
When I asked, I really expected an answer. God spoke to my heart.
“You are in danger of being in offense, you need to forgive some people,” (He said).
Not only that, he said a spirit of offense was trying to take me, he impressed on my soul. I was baffled. “Okay so what do you want me to do, Father?”
This passage in Proverbs 18:19 came to my heart as well.
“A brother offended is harder to win than a strong city, And contentions are like the bars of a castle.”
My Impression was, if I didn’t do what God said, He wouldn’t be able to lead me. So I complied and said, “Okay, what, and who, Father, for I do not know (who or what?)”. From there he led me to about 25 people and events, and I said them out loud and verbally forgave them (or the incidents) Sitting in my chair.
I also prayed it would be forgotten, and I would remember it no more. I released them all and I prayed to be clear of any offense, that would keep me from moving forward, with God, as well. I made myself accountable to one other person.
Mark 11:25 says if we do not forgive, God does not forgive us. I have always wondered about that passage of scripture. What? You mean you take back the forgiveness you gave me Father? Nope. It’s more like this: Deliberate sin blocks out God. Ever feel like you are stuck? Stuck in fear, stuck in anger, or in my case “STUCK” in unforgivness. AND I didn’t even realize it! No wonder we need God. (every single day of our lives) and we need to seek him (first) and walk by His Spirit in Jesus’ name! He keeps us from stumbling or being stuck, but he is the Leader!
SO Follow the Leader! (His Spirit) and you will do well. 1 John 1:7 (see the word IF)
After this he led me to buy cards that say I LOVE YOU! (I will be sending them out to people as he has directed.) Stay Tuned for the results of this directive!
Laura Grace, Author, Speaker and Minister of the Gospel of Jesus Christ. Peace!