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Christmas story #2 Going home for Christmas ……(and God’s help)

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Twice. I remember going home for Christmas twice, after I grew up and moved away. The First time I was in the Air Force, and I was at Lackland TX.
 
I found out at the last minute I could go home, but had no money to go. I borrowed it, and got on a bus.
 
I didn’t have any money for eating, and this woman must have noticed, because when she got off the bus, she handed me a reader’s digest and said “Look inside, but not until I’m gone”.
 
Inside was a 10.00 bill. God sent me help (I think). 
The second time I was driving, and my commander advised me it was probably not a great idea to go. I was going to be driving a mountain pass and he said “the weather is not supposed to be good.” I was young and industructable, nothing could happen to me! (or so I thought).
 
I remember well after Christmas was over, the snow started coming down on the way back to the base. By the time I got to the town up on the pass, the weather was so bad, I could not see across the street. The comnander’s words rang in my ears “You will be A WOL if you don’t return the day you said.”
 
I couldn’t see! I got out to call my mom, told her I was okay, and got back in the car. A few miles down the road I saw I was heading BACK to where I just came from!
I strained to see where to turn around, saw a turn around area (now deep with snow) and got firmly stuck. Oh man I was scared! And I prayed! “I don’t deserve it Lord, but help!”
 
Suddenly out of nowwhere, two men appeared in the blinding snow. “Put it in Neutral” He said, And they pushed me out.
 
When I looked to say thank you, nobody was there. No car, no tail lights, Nothing! I have always believed it was angels.
 
Just knowing that kept me calm as I drove the rest of the way in the blinding snow sticking close to the tail lights of a truck up ahead of me.
 
I could not even see the side of the road most of the time and when I got back, I had about a 16th of a tank of gas left. I was so thankful! And to this day, As much as I may want to go somewhere at Christmas I think about what that commander said “If you don’t get back, you’ll be AWOL”.
 
That was one trip I probably shouldn’t have taken, but God’s grace was right there for me.
Thank you Jesus.
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The Joy of Christmas….(how to keep it)

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My Gift to you this Christmas, is to share for 12 days How I’ve kept my Joy (over Christmas). I hope you enjoy this, a gift, from my heart to yours. -Laura Grace 12 days 1

#1 THE LOVE (of Christmas Lights and Food). 

When I was a kid, everything about Christmas was not necessarily “Fun.” First off, I was a bad gift wrapper (and still am). I used too much tape, I hated the patience involved with wrapping gifts, and I was terrible at putting tinsel on the tree.

My Dad was kind of a scrooge, talking about commercialism and the evils of Christmas time. My mom was the fun one (At Christmas).

I had disappointments. We all had the Sears catalog called “the dream book.” We Wished for stuff, asked Santa for it, and even wrote him letters.

Let’s face it, for most of us, the dream of Santa bringing us a Pony, an airplane, or a host of other wishes we wished for, just never came true. 

One of the secrets I think, is that God was with me to help me see the GOOD about Christmas. The lights, the brightly wrapped packages, and mom making all those special goodies, really did “Minister to me.” 

Sure I got disappointed. I remember Christmas music, and how “Hark the Herald Angels are singing” and thinking about “The Little town of Bethlehem” and “Away in a Manger” God used those Christmas songs!

He used them to woo me toward himself. To Get me thinking about him, and his love for me! You know what’s funny? (or not so funny) Is many who complained about Christmas wound up MISSING IT when they were not able to get home. 

For many, the wake up call is when “Christmas is no more” for one reason or another. When I was in the Air Force, all I wanted to do was get home for Christmas. (and I did) I rode a bus to get there. (Read about it in part 2.) 

What sticks out to you about Christmas? For my dad he still says “bah Humbug” to this day. (Sad, but true) and I refuse to hide that he does that. Why? Because he chose to dwell on some bad childhood memory! I wish he wouldn’t do that but he does. I made a different choice, because I saw what it did to him. (Joyless!). 

 Have you noticed seeing the good in something increases the good? 

And that dwelling on the bad can consume your mind? (And rob you of the good?) 

 How can we pass on the JOY Of Christmas (and Christ) to others, this season? 

          Good Question! Stay tuned for part 2 (of 12) 

       –Laura Grace 

 

 

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When you’re taking a trip…..(A very important message about the road to heaven. )

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We live in the knowledge age. Everyone wants to discuss what we should or should not be doing, and more importantly, what others should or should not be doing. Without a doubt it’s the most philisophical, debatable, and argumentive age we’ve ever seen. 

When I’m taking a trip, i hope I will plan (how much it will cost) and is there air in my tires? Do I have all the necessities for my journey? What route will I take? Where am I going to stay along the way, and when I get there? We all know if we don’t plan, it’s likely we could end up by the side of the road, sleeping in the car (or something) and then there is the big question: “Why am I even taking this trip?” 

Once we know that (and our passion for the trip is established) we might begin sharing with others what we are doing, where we are going, and why. 

I’ve encountered so much advice along the way, and I know people are trying to be helpful. “Take water and tools” they may say “in case you break down.” “Pray first” Or maybe they’ll say “You can’t afford that trip.” (How do they know?) or maybe they will share their trip, what they did, and how it was a much better trip than you are taking! 

It doesn’t matter, because if you only got one shot at your dream trip, would you let anyone take it from you? Would you let them waylay you, stop you, thwart you, or waste so much of your time you never even get there? I don’t think so! 

Funny how we would take something like a “road trip” so seriously and not ponder where we are going for all eternity. (and who we will see when we get there!)

I”m sorry, I can’t allow you to take me off course! I have a dream about doing things God’s way, learning from Him, Following Him and having him say to me when I get there “Well done” “Enter in” “Glad to see you my son (daughter). He gave me the route, the plan, and he has helped me to count the cost. I don’t have time to argue about it or debate with you about whether my plan is good or bad (according to you). My Father from heaven has spoken, and I must be on my way. 

Laura Grace            John 4:34 “Jesus said to them, “My food is to do the will of Him who sent Me, and to finish His work”

 

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When the Lord is your Husband and he is First #1 (Exodus 20:3)

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Jesus said to him, “‘You shall love the Lord your God with all your heart, with all your soul, and with all your mind ” Luke 10:27
Exodus 20:3 “Thou shalt have no other gods before me.“
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Is God really first in your life? The first one you run to? The first one you listen to?
God had a lot to say in the Old Testemant about “other lovers” which meant: Others that people beleived in Over Himself. God said something pretty stern in Isaiah 57:13:
“When you cry out, Let your collectionof idols deliver you. But the wind will carry them all away, A breath will take them. But he who puts his trust in Me shall possess the land, And shall inherit My holy mountain.” “Thou Shalt have no other gods before me……..” What does it mean? 
God wants to be like our husband. #1, Uno. Forsaking all others (because of him, and his importance to us). Thus we have the passage in John 1:12 (I like the KJV) as it says “But as many as received him, to them gave he power to become the sons of God, even to them that believe on his name”
 He’s our Shepherd. He’s our husband as well, and he doesn’t take kindly to us trusting in others more than we trust in him. Convicting? Yes, it certainly is.
He’s not “on our case” he is trying to help us. He wants us to be able to resist the devil, and cast down the accuser (of the brethren) but cannot do it unless we do it GOD”S WAY. He set things up that way! (and he’s not going to change it because it makes you uncomfortable, either). 
“repent” (means) to turn away from all others you have trusted in, besides Him. When we come through the fire, it means all that we have trusted in (that is not of him) has been consumed. He’s a consuming fire, and wants to burn up the (fleshly) ways we have BECAUSE there is no other way to become (his sons) who are like him in how he thinks, how he walks, how he talks, and what HE believes in.
We can’t defeat the devil when we are unsurrendered to God (James 4:7) And submission does not mean “Okay Father I guess you want me sick, poor or defeated” It means “I submit Father, to handling my entire life YOUR way!” My entire life “I give to you Father” (My husband, my friend) for you are worthy to be trusted with it all! 
Now “If there is any way in me” that seems unrighteous to you Father Deal with me!! correct me! chastize me!” (amen) I give my heart soul mind and body to you Father in Jesus’ name (amen)!
Now …..Now you are ready to resist (the enemy of your souls) however God says to do it! Worship! Praise! Rebuke the devil! anoint someone! Maybe God will have you say to a total unbeliever “God is healing me!!!” (in the face of their unbelief) There are no formula’s…...(only Jesus)
“Behold, I give unto you power to tread on serpents and scorpions, and over all the power of the enemy: and nothing shall by any means hurt you.”   Luke 10:19 
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The all about me people (by Laura Grace)

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The All about me-people!

by Laura Grace:

We’ve all met them …….
at least once or twice
they want to be naughty
and pretend to be nice

It’s all about them, every time, every place
If they are not happy, they get in your face.

Now I know we forgive them (and pray for them too)
But honestly sometimes, what can we do?

We see them coming, we want to hide!
When we’re having a blessing, they’re along for the ride.

But when we go through a trial ……
THEY run and hide!
They wait til it’s over
and then they come back
It’s all about them (again) 
And that, is a fact!

They will drain you 
and pain you 
and flat “wear you out” 
use you
abuse you
and fill you with doubt

Now you are wondering “did I fail to love?” 
Nope you did not! And here’s help from above!

If they won’t take God’s wisdom, 
It’s not up to you 
to save them from folly 
so take heed what you do!

Let them go my sweet child 
Let them go with a prayer 
gather the wheat 
and uproot the tare

I”m sorry this happens…..
And I know that there’s pain…..
But God is the saviour 
and You: “Pray for rain”

Let them grow up,
They must suffer the pain 
You Need to Grow! 
Now, Soak up the rain! 
Grow in the sunshine
Bask in God’s love!

And my child this is: 
Your help, From Above!

Please don’t feel guilty …….
they are making a choice

Now you, please make yours
and don’t lose your voice!

#grace to Grow (by Laura Grace)

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Friendship is……

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My Scripture for today is: Proverbs 18:24 “A man who has friends must himself be friendly, But there is a friend who sticks closer than a brother”

Why is (a good) friendship better than therapy? Because you have to pay the therapist (to listen to you) a friend does it for free. A friend loves you even when your words are not happy, Holy, wholesome or even “Politically or rationally correct”

A friend will hear your worst fears, pain, sorrow, hateful feelings, anger, rage, and all your “dark night of the soul” stuff without passing Judgement. I know the best friend to talk to is Jesus but since we cannot see him the next best thing is a friend who has 
allowed HIS very heart to develop within their soul realm.

When we listen to friends we should learn to listen with our heart, asking God’s light to be there with us. When a friend is in pain, it’s not a great time to jump to conclusions about them or offer little platitudes, unkind remarks, or make them feel stupid because WE never experienced that type of pain.

Developing empathy takes time. Christians, please remember that Literally thousands of things were said that are not in our bibles. The early Christians had no scripture to quote. therefore, we know a whole lot more was said than what is in the pages before us.

I ask myself questions such as “If Jesus’ Had compassion they hadn’t eaten for three days while listening to him preach, what other things did he have compassion about?

It’s wonderful to say the right things in the face of evil and pain, and to have the continual goal of staying positive, however, there are times people just need a Friend (to listen) And the compassionate listeners in your life are those unsung heroes who are often the wind beneath our wings.

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I die daily…..

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Dying Daily- and God’s power to raise you up

I do die (daily). By this I mean that I let go of my (selfish) ways and let go of the outcome I desired.

I may hope to convince someone to see things my way but if they won’t: “I die to it.”

Every time I choose to just let it go, Pray about it, give it To Jesus instead of taking things into my own hands (because Of God’s word) I may not be applauded by the masses, but I am right with God.

There is a pastor who said to me: “Meekness is being at rest from the un-rest of your self-will.”

If we don’t see manipulation as a sin, we won’t stop doing it. But if we do see it, we will be face with ta choice: Keep doing what your flesh “feels like doing” or just let it go. (die to it!).

Praying for others who have let us down, frustrated us, hurt us, attacked us, or whatever else (I believe) helps take the sting out of this “death to self” that goes on when we let go.

It’s admirable! If you have been upset, agitated, angry at someone (and maybe for a JUST cause) And you choose to let it go, just because God Said (vengeance is mine, overcome evil with good, bless your enemies, and so on) You will be rewarded. Your reward is you have overcome, sin does not have dominion over you, because you have chosen God’s way (over your own). Not only that, you will be led in paths of righteousness, and God will produce the Fruit of righteousness within you.

I know the world often says: “nice guys finish last.” If you are just trying to be a nice guy to impress someone maybe that’s true. However, if you do something out of obedience to God, wanting to honor his word, you are promised a greater outcome. Dying to self is painful, but trust me, His Resurrection power will lift you up (into him) And his Power will sustain you (and keep you alive in Him).

 

1 Corn 15:31 I affirm, by the boasting in you which I have in Christ Jesus our Lord, I die daily.

Romans 6:14-18 14 For sin shall not have dominion over you, for you are not under law but under grace. 15 What then? Shall we sin because we are not under law but under grace? Certainly not! 16 Do you not know that to whom you present yourselves slaves to obey, you are that one’s slaves whom you obey, whether of sin leading to death, or of obedience leading to righteousness?

17 But God be thanked that though you were slaves of sin, yet you obeyed from the heart that form of doctrine to which you were delivered. 18 And having been set free from sin, you became slaves of righteousness. with Love, Laura Grace

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Relationship is everything Series: A word about Men (and men being spiritual)

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Funny man and womanI think deep down- most men think being too spiritual is woman stuff and not for them. 
Pastors? They can do it and it’s acceptable for them. The rest feel left out- for the most part, and Maybe a little bit lost as to what role they have in the spirit-realm. 
THE WHOLE PROBLEM IS that women Mostly are taught from the time they are born we are helpers to men, they are not taught they are helpers to us.
They are to protect, defend, even die for us. it all starts very young for them “be a man” “man up” …..Women are taught to be the helpers- men are taught to be strong or if they don’t feel strong they had better look like they are. Meltdowns and crying are for women only. Men are not 
supposed to cry or feel weak or feel defenseless. 
Society as a whole calls them wimps or woosies if they do that. 
So-they lash out instead. (in most cases) or get grumpy. In Most cases it’s because deep inside they are hurting about something. but by looking at them, you’d never know it. they are trying to be brave for us. 
Their hurt (anger and pain) “leaks out” sometimes in the craziest ways. Weeping at the Altar praying to be more loving and kind is hard for most men (as far as I can see). 
They are torn between being a man of God, and feeling like men. 
I think they fear failing us, and in their own hearts and minds don’t really know what to do. No wonder King David was so special to God. He had cultivated his prayer life out there when he was among the sheep. He didn’t have to prove anything……
(to other men) Until that day he faced Goliath. by the time he did that he had learned to do things God’s way. 
Oh Father, help our men. In Jesus’ name we pray! Give them Soul Healing. Give them revival! Give them what they need! (Soul Healing and an understanding of who they are in you Lord!) Amen 
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Healing and Life & Freedom from strife

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We dream of a world where THAT never happens again whatever it is. Nobody ever lies to us again.

Nobody ever hurts us again. Sometimes we grow up thinking “when I grow up” Nobody is going to (Make me) go through that again. It could be anything.

Maybe making you feel ashamed of your clothes. That happened long ago but some person just made a wicked comnent that sent you through the roof, and you don’t know why? How could their words hurt me so much (you wonder?)

I’ve been saved and serving God for 30 years. There are things that still can get under my skin, mess me up, and make me feel like I am not a new creature at all in Jesus. I AM (how do U know?) because the first thing I think is “Help me Jesus’ not ‘Going to kill them now” LOL

WE ALL suffer different things in life and if it happens at an impressionable age it can really affect us for life (without God’s help) Without God I’d have been on a whole lot of meds I can tell you that.

I can study psychology and see very plainly I had “PTSD” as they call it. When you “Freak out” because something reminds you of a painful moment you thought you forgot. When you “see red” because someone said something that reminds you of a painful time you have tucked away in a closet somewhere.

You are NOT going to realize these things without God’s help or someone (to hold you accountable) which could be a counsellor or a really wise friend if you have one to talk to. I was hurt by someone this week that Loves me and I know I love them but. It still hurt. A LOT. I Know from past experience not to freak out. I prayed, I waited, (prayed more) and finally approached them about it. I made calm decisions what I am going to do about it too.

I Worked through my FEELINGS that made me want to freak out. I assessed it all with God’s help.Why? because I learned the hard way I can make matters worse if I freak out and start saying things I regret.

this is called working out your Salvation (in God) this passage in Phillipians is talking to BELIEVERS (not unbelievers) Philippians 2:12 [ Light Bearers ] “Therefore, my beloved, as you have always obeyed, not as in my presence only, but now much more in my absence, work out your own salvation with fear and trembling” Have a great weekend friends! Love you dearly! Laura Grace 

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Grief and Pain (no, you are not stupid).

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Having Grief and Pain (You’re not stupid!) 
One thing I’ve not been known to ever do, is to call people’s 
feelings stupid (or dumb, or even wrong). I’ve learned some 
times the hard way our feelings should not dominate us, but 
at the same time, I know we have them. Grief comes in many 
forms, and sometimes people who can’t cry get very angry 
instead. Maybe they won’t cry because someone said it’s 
stupid, or maybe because it embarrasses them. 
You won’t catch me telling you there are right or wrong things 
to grieve about either. These ideas such as “There are starving
children somewhere” so be grateful for your plate of liver” or 
platitudes such as: “Well at least you are alive, or if one of your
children died, you still have the other” do not really help people 
feel better. Do they? Not very often. I would say mostly, not. 
People hire therapists in part, because they fear telling friends, 
family, and yes even pastors at times, their deepest thoughts 
and fears. They have grief and want to get over it. Sometimes 
the grief “seems to be” over something stupid. The fear that 
someone will call them stupid, makes them want to hide. 
“I AM SO STUPID!” (I have said that myself) When I am very 
frustrated for giving that person another chance (and they did 
that to me again!) Or I dared to dream, and now I’m disappointed
(again for the 14th time, or even the 100th time). 
I should never say that but, I have. Why? Why do we chastize our
selves like that? 
#1 We see others getting over it, so we think we are failures
#2 We think our grief is “stupid” to begin with. (not important). 
#3 We don’t understand where this grief is coming from or even how to stop it. 
Therapy sometimes goes too far in perpetuating our grief, (getting 
us to feel sorry for ourselves, which can lead to depression) 
God tells us to “be of good cheer” but sometimes, we can’t. We 
are sad. We need to cry. It’s called grieving. 
King David danced, but he also wept about sin and disappointment. 
Jeremiah wept over the sins of God’s people. 
Jonah got depressed because God did not destroy Ninevah after he 
delivered a word that it would be destroyed. Job got depressed too. 
I believe part of soul-healing is talking about it. Whether you talk to 
God about it, or someone else. Ministers like TD Jakes talk about their
soul being torn, ripped apart, dreams going out the window, and feeling
like God didn’t care (for awhile) about their pain. This is why people love
to read their stories. They can relate. 
We need teachers and we need prophets, but we need pastors too. 
Pastors tend to be nurturing people. They love and tend to the sheep. 
If they are not this way, perhaps they should not have been pastors. 
But in the world of men, There are not any paying postions for a lot 
of the other ministries (which is sad). They are forced to ask for money
continually, because nobody offers them a home, or a paycheck. 
Those people have dreams too (you see) And it’s a heart to reach the
lost, the hurting, the broken, and the dying. They can’t get there without
someone’s help. I just put one of my dreams on the Altar, because unless
God sends a way to provide for it, I just can’t do it anymore. 
It’s called “Authoring books” to reach the hurting. I can’t afford what it costs anymore, so I have to stop. My paychecks are like .01 (last quarter) for this endeavor. I’ve been doing it for 7 years now, and it pays nothing. And it’s okay but it still hurts to have dreams come to an end. I have to stop now. Until God provides for it. If he doesn’t, oh well! I will still love him just the same. 
And no I don’t want sympathy- but I have some grief right now. God will 
surely bring me out of it too. He always does! He is faithful! I have faced many disappointments in my life. And I will live through this one, too. 
As a minister and a child of God I find that “letting go” is one of the most 
painful things I have ever experienced. Letting go of what you know is bad
is hard, but letting go of something you thought was good is even harder. 
I am reminded of the following scripture in regardes to self-preservation. 
When you are done grieving, consider putting it all in God’s hands. 
We really are better off to put our lives in the Lord’s hands and say “Thy will 
be done, thy kingdom come, on earth, as it is in heaven.” Amen. 
Today is November 1. Happy Author’s day. I just layed my 7 year Journey 
of writing books at the Lord’s feet. 
Matthew 16:25 For whoever desires to save his life will lose it, but whoever loses his life for my sake, will find it.  Peace out (for now) Laura Grace